Sunday, March 15, 2009

i wish i had more control over everything...

i just don't get it.
don't you think if you were going to move in with the new one, you'd at least already gotten rid of common-law? i think so. and tried in any way to ensure that you no longer have ties with the other? yeah me too. and isn't it a bad idea to move in with someone you've already cheated on at least once? i think so. good life ahead.

i want my stuff already. i'm tired of not having my worldly belongings with me. tired of you benefiting from my things. tired of not being able to go and get them. tired of empty promises and offers. you're a shit person, and i'm pretty sure you always were. i just never noticed. rose coloured glasses i'm pretty sure were the death of us.
thank god they broke.

rs td oe hrm acct

well.. what is going on?
i'm not even sure. life has a way of just breezing by. already the weather is warming up. (although we do still get wicked cold spells) i'm in the last 5 weeks of school. and it's intense. not in an uncontrollable way, but in well, a way that i'm not used to. in all honesty, i loved my undergrad. it was so interesting to me, and learning it wasn't so bad. even when i complained, i still liked what and how i was learning. in this program, it's very different. i'm not a business person, yet i'm entering in a very professional business field. what am i thinking?? although, i do love this field. i feel it was the right decision, i think i am just a lot more grateful for the fact that i was able to get a degree in something i really did truly love to learn about.


side note:
i did attend my first 'metal' show. hilarious. mostly because i was in business casual attire from a previous engagement....business casual and market punks...what a combination.

time is moving. so fast it seems. and i need to start to work on a co-op. this shall be an adventure. i'm hoping that i will be able to return to afghanistan for my placement. it would be awesome, not just the position, but the fact that i would make so much money. after talking to so many of the previous semester students, majority are unpaid, and most students still don't have placements and they are starting to work in may. so if i can start now and possibly secure a paying co-op. scores for me.

my life would be right on track. it's been awhile since i've thought that.