today i had lunch with a friend from the past, i've known her since kindergarten. of my highschool group of friends, there were only three of us that moved away, and we were two of them. she's like a sister/cousin kind of person. her family is like mine and mine likewise.

as time goes by. i feel like life is just a revolving door. things and people coming and going, going and coming.

i do find it refreshing when i can find a piece of home in a person, as opposed to the traditional idea of a home. god knows how long i've had that even. it was funny, she's one of the few that has known me since forever, before my parents split, etc. and as we were talking, i knew that i could say anything, she was there for so much. it's nice to not have to make small chat. just be.

the past is a strange thing, the future is too, but i wonder if it's always a cycle of this?

an ex's mom had a heart attack, i was called. it was shocking, i was concerned. and scared. it's funny how one sentence can change so much. we've talked since. said we'd stay in contact. but it's weird. that's not my life anymore.

i think i'm getting nostalgic for memories of the past. lives i've had.


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complete sidenote:
i want to join team bill.
i've started to jump on the true blood bandwagon. i love the theme song. i love bill. i'm absurd i know. but i just had to announce that.

big adventure to the cave below!

i don't know where my head is. i am really enjoying school yet i've managed to procrastinate the entire weekend. i have a midterm on monday and this assignment that i am currently working on due in class before the midterm. this is the second time that i have "gone back" to school. and honestly i wish i was in the same frame of mind as i was before. but things will get done. i'll maintain my average that i have so far. i just need to focus more.

i love spring. love it. and we're getting a taste of it right now. i really can't wait to have it start already!

things are good right now. and as tracy mentioned, i feel like i'll jinx it by talking about it, but i don't care. i'm happy. i have a great roommate, a great guy in my life, great friends that although i don't see as often as i'd like, i know they are there for me, and i'm learning more and maybe actually finding something i am passionate about doing, and well...yeah. i don't know. but things are good.

so today i'll leave you with this.
whenever i need to laugh, i watch this.