whirlwind.
that's my life.

re-connect with some people from the past. and current friends i haven't seen nearly enough of.

heading to the uk on thursday/friday. can't wait. this vacation is a long time coming. i can't really afford it. but it's happening.

coop is done. school is done. job hunting has begun. slowly but surely. stressful, definitely.

i sliced my hand on a can. that was unpleasant. but my really cute bandaids made it sorta ok.

i can't help it. i listen to the new weezer song on my ipod really loudly.


ok. time to get laundry ready for tomorrow.

today i had lunch with a friend from the past, i've known her since kindergarten. of my highschool group of friends, there were only three of us that moved away, and we were two of them. she's like a sister/cousin kind of person. her family is like mine and mine likewise.

as time goes by. i feel like life is just a revolving door. things and people coming and going, going and coming.

i do find it refreshing when i can find a piece of home in a person, as opposed to the traditional idea of a home. god knows how long i've had that even. it was funny, she's one of the few that has known me since forever, before my parents split, etc. and as we were talking, i knew that i could say anything, she was there for so much. it's nice to not have to make small chat. just be.

the past is a strange thing, the future is too, but i wonder if it's always a cycle of this?

an ex's mom had a heart attack, i was called. it was shocking, i was concerned. and scared. it's funny how one sentence can change so much. we've talked since. said we'd stay in contact. but it's weird. that's not my life anymore.

i think i'm getting nostalgic for memories of the past. lives i've had.


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complete sidenote:
i want to join team bill.
i've started to jump on the true blood bandwagon. i love the theme song. i love bill. i'm absurd i know. but i just had to announce that.

i just want to freeze time.

what a whirlwind life can be.

so much going on, and not enough time to process it all.

my trip across the pond has officially been postponed. i'm not happy about it.

in exchange for that, i did get my top choice of co-op with http://www.redwoodcc.com and i'm excited for that.

other than that, i'm completely unmotivated by life, single again, working/eating/sleeping, a drone in the game of life.

things aren't completely horrible....but never as planned. i have a lot of good things happening...but they aren't making me happy.

mhhhmmm

so tomorrow eric is going on a mini tour w/ his band. i decided to bake some cookies for them for the trip.


since most of the band is either veggie or vegan, i made vegan chocolate chip cookies!











so tasty!!!


here's the recipe:

2 cups flour
1 cup sugar
2 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp salt
1 tbsp cinnamon (optional)
1/2 cup oil (canola or sunflower)
1 tsp vanilla extract
1/4 cup cold water or soy milk

chocolate chips (just eyeball the amount, add more if it seems there aren't enough per cookie, if you have too many you'll just have extras in the bowl later)

preheat oven to 350 degrees
mix all ingredients together in the order specified (add the chocolate chips after the other ingredients are mixed) and then roll balls of cookies and flatten them onto a pan.


i cooked them for about 8 minutes, but my oven is hotter than most...so i'd keep a keen eye on the first batch until you are sure about your oven.

*i used soy milk and the cinnamon= SOOO GOOOOD!!!!

it's staring....

all i have to say is....watch out!!

"Similar to a scare originally found in Cambodia back in 2005, victims of a new strain of the swine flu virus H1N1 have been reported in London.

After death, this virus is able to restart the heart of it’s victim for up to two hours after the initial demise of the person where the individual behaves in extremely violent ways from what is believe to be a combination of brain damage and a chemical released into blood during “resurrection.” "

"The Netherlands confirms its first case of zombie swine flu, in a three-year-old boy recently returned from Mexico. After passing away early this morning, he rose from the dead and lunged at his mother."

check out the whole article here. i'm not making this stuff up.

call me paranoid.....

okay. i'm not done with my zombie news.

i'm convinced that there are zombies now. the world is going to end.

but it's because the signs are here.

1. a pandemic/outbreak - swine flu - how it all starts
World Health Org. Update:
28 April 2009
Swine influenza - update 4

28 April 2009--The situation continues to evolve rapidly. As of 19:15 GMT, 28 April 2009, seven countries have officially reported cases of swine influenza A/H1N1 infection. The United States Government has reported 64 laboratory confirmed human cases, with no deaths. Mexico has reported 26 confirmed human cases of infection including seven deaths.

The following countries have reported laboratory confirmed cases with no deaths - Canada (6), New Zealand (3), the United Kingdom (2), Israel (2) and Spain (2).

Further information on the situation will be available on the WHO website on a regular basis.

WHO advises no restriction of regular travel or closure of borders. It is considered prudent for people who are ill to delay international travel and for people developing symptoms following international travel to seek medical attention, in line with guidance from national authorities.

There is also no risk of infection from this virus from consumption of well-cooked pork and pork products. Individuals are advised to wash hands thoroughly with soap and water on a regular basis and should seek medical attention if they develop any symptoms of influenza-like illness.

click here for more.

basically, we think that it's some flu or something....then everyone is getting sick and turning.

2. Graves are being vandalized aka the dead are rising.
Incidents:
- article 1
- article 2
- article 3
- article 4

i've complied other info, but it's slightly morbid. and i don't feel right about posting it.


watch out. and get ready.

nightmares.

so this morning i woke up from the most horrible nightmare.

i don't get scared by much. especially in movies. but i am terrified of zombies. for real. i find them to be more realistic then most horror film ideas. it could happen. it will happen. some day a big military attack or development will result in us all dying. from zombies.

so there i was. in a field. children all around me. i am running. at full speed. (and i really don't do that) yelling at them to get inside. then i suddenly realize that they are chasing me. i get into this rather large 1970's style church. all brown and burnt orange in colour. i rush up the stairs and out the window to the roof. which was like a tower, with weird circular forms. i keep climbing. the tower starts to fall. it lands on the building next to it. it was as if i planned that to happen. i rush inside. down the stairs. i'm in the hallway. the glass patio door is ajar. i lock it. i grab some blankets and start to head to the shelter in the basement where my teenage son (named alex ??? i know. strange) is hiding. but as i grab a blanket, i realize it was keeping the door shut. (would a blanket really keep zombies out??) i try to close the door. i see them. they are coming towards me. i run to the door to the shelter. there is a window. i see alex. if he opens the door we might not be able to close it in time. they are closer. almost at my heels.


i wake up.

seriously.

i sat up straight in my bed. for about 10 minutes to calm down. i felt as if i was in that situation. my heart was racing. RACING. then i look around my room. i decide i live in the worst place for a zombie attack. seriously. i decided i needed to move.

no i'm not going to move. but really. i need to sort out a plan. just in case.

ok so i strayed on this blog. i think i want to make it more topical.
so i'm going to try to get updates once a week. we'll see on how this progresses.

i wish i had more control over everything...

i just don't get it.
don't you think if you were going to move in with the new one, you'd at least already gotten rid of common-law? i think so. and tried in any way to ensure that you no longer have ties with the other? yeah me too. and isn't it a bad idea to move in with someone you've already cheated on at least once? i think so. good life ahead.

i want my stuff already. i'm tired of not having my worldly belongings with me. tired of you benefiting from my things. tired of not being able to go and get them. tired of empty promises and offers. you're a shit person, and i'm pretty sure you always were. i just never noticed. rose coloured glasses i'm pretty sure were the death of us.
thank god they broke.

rs td oe hrm acct

well.. what is going on?
i'm not even sure. life has a way of just breezing by. already the weather is warming up. (although we do still get wicked cold spells) i'm in the last 5 weeks of school. and it's intense. not in an uncontrollable way, but in well, a way that i'm not used to. in all honesty, i loved my undergrad. it was so interesting to me, and learning it wasn't so bad. even when i complained, i still liked what and how i was learning. in this program, it's very different. i'm not a business person, yet i'm entering in a very professional business field. what am i thinking?? although, i do love this field. i feel it was the right decision, i think i am just a lot more grateful for the fact that i was able to get a degree in something i really did truly love to learn about.


side note:
i did attend my first 'metal' show. hilarious. mostly because i was in business casual attire from a previous engagement....business casual and market punks...what a combination.

time is moving. so fast it seems. and i need to start to work on a co-op. this shall be an adventure. i'm hoping that i will be able to return to afghanistan for my placement. it would be awesome, not just the position, but the fact that i would make so much money. after talking to so many of the previous semester students, majority are unpaid, and most students still don't have placements and they are starting to work in may. so if i can start now and possibly secure a paying co-op. scores for me.

my life would be right on track. it's been awhile since i've thought that.

i do love the city. but sometimes i really miss the silence of the base in the middle of the night.

big adventure to the cave below!

i don't know where my head is. i am really enjoying school yet i've managed to procrastinate the entire weekend. i have a midterm on monday and this assignment that i am currently working on due in class before the midterm. this is the second time that i have "gone back" to school. and honestly i wish i was in the same frame of mind as i was before. but things will get done. i'll maintain my average that i have so far. i just need to focus more.

i love spring. love it. and we're getting a taste of it right now. i really can't wait to have it start already!

things are good right now. and as tracy mentioned, i feel like i'll jinx it by talking about it, but i don't care. i'm happy. i have a great roommate, a great guy in my life, great friends that although i don't see as often as i'd like, i know they are there for me, and i'm learning more and maybe actually finding something i am passionate about doing, and well...yeah. i don't know. but things are good.

so today i'll leave you with this.
whenever i need to laugh, i watch this.

lightening strikes

i feel behind. i feel like i don't have a real grasp on the pace of life here yet.

today i have sat down to get some studying done for school. i have a quiz on monday. i really do love my course. a lot actually. more than i thought that i would. but it's the atmosphere. i'm not used to having to work in groups at a peer-to-peer level. i can do this. but i also have the urge to designate tasks. i cannot stand sitting in a circle and people debating about a comfortable topic. oh my.

in unrelated news, i can spend hours clicking links finding random cool things on the internet. and i think i'm going to start to compile a list. but before that, some a random person that i am blown away by.

this man is awesome.
his name is Klaus Nomi. and we share birthdays. so we are connected. it's that simple.





and on snowy days like today....i miss my mountains...

one day...

so i was clicking along a chain of articles, and i found one that talks about the ten science fiction movies that the author can't wait to share with his kids. this made me think about the movies (not specifically sci-fi) i cannot wait to share with my kids whenever i end up procreating.....

now, some of these movies, well i might have to wait a while to show my kids, but one day i hope that they will love them just as much as i do....

(not a real order, just a list...)

10. peter pan
and the mary martin one too!

9. daisies

8. blade runner

7. soylent green

6. forbidden planet

5. hairspray

4. true romance

3. metropolis

2. amelie

1. labyrinth

oh ttc.

sometimes my life feels like this...




well, today's post isn't as informative as the others.

life is coming up pretty good lately. i stayed after class today to sort out an assignment and i must say i have a very diverse class. they are actually pretty hilarious. we all come from very different worlds. it's the most culturally enriched class that i have ever been in, and i love it. there is a lot of work coming up soon, but it's nice to have something to keep me busy and get me back in learning mode. i'm still not adjusted, but i'm getting there.

this weekend was fantastic! i love having so many of my friends around. and dancing was great. i really missed that a lot. it was a perfect way to celebrate getting older. this year i was actually having some anxiety towards my birthday, i'm not sure why. i don't normally look at my age as anything but a number but this year i felt like i didn't want to get older. i'm okay with it now. so far...

here comes the invisible....

well, i'm sick. not horribly sick. but sick none the less. there are a few culprits that i might blame for this infection...but hopefully i will get better quickly.

so it seems that i've come across another technology related advancement article. and really, it does make me excited. it's like the idea of living in the world of the jetson's, or some other highly advanced civillization.

in Invisibility 'cloak' moves closer to reality, the idea is brought closer to actually happening, no longer is it just something read about in fantasy or sci-fi novels. sure it's not a moving cloak that can be worn by a person. but! it is working and they are working towards manipulating this material into something that can be similar to the ideas in the movies/books. i'm sure the military will be the first ones to push this development. definately. but still, even as a military tool, that is one awesome development.

i want to fly....

Ok. I'm pretty sure you all are aware of my love for old sci-fi films, which lead to my love of space. And, well, space and technology go hand in hand, yeah I love technology too. But the other day I came across this article... "Up, up, and... oh crap!": Ars reviews Jetpack Dreams ...and it made me wonder... WHY DON'T WE HAVE JET PACKS? But really though, with all the advancements of this modern day, you'd think that we would have developed this rather awesome mode of transportation. I gess a girl can only dream...


related links:
I want a hoverboard...
Futurama





is our world destined to become this?

check it!

so i am making the leap.
i guess it only makes sense.
here goes nothing!!