whirlwind.
that's my life.

re-connect with some people from the past. and current friends i haven't seen nearly enough of.

heading to the uk on thursday/friday. can't wait. this vacation is a long time coming. i can't really afford it. but it's happening.

coop is done. school is done. job hunting has begun. slowly but surely. stressful, definitely.

i sliced my hand on a can. that was unpleasant. but my really cute bandaids made it sorta ok.

i can't help it. i listen to the new weezer song on my ipod really loudly.


ok. time to get laundry ready for tomorrow.

today i had lunch with a friend from the past, i've known her since kindergarten. of my highschool group of friends, there were only three of us that moved away, and we were two of them. she's like a sister/cousin kind of person. her family is like mine and mine likewise.

as time goes by. i feel like life is just a revolving door. things and people coming and going, going and coming.

i do find it refreshing when i can find a piece of home in a person, as opposed to the traditional idea of a home. god knows how long i've had that even. it was funny, she's one of the few that has known me since forever, before my parents split, etc. and as we were talking, i knew that i could say anything, she was there for so much. it's nice to not have to make small chat. just be.

the past is a strange thing, the future is too, but i wonder if it's always a cycle of this?

an ex's mom had a heart attack, i was called. it was shocking, i was concerned. and scared. it's funny how one sentence can change so much. we've talked since. said we'd stay in contact. but it's weird. that's not my life anymore.

i think i'm getting nostalgic for memories of the past. lives i've had.


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complete sidenote:
i want to join team bill.
i've started to jump on the true blood bandwagon. i love the theme song. i love bill. i'm absurd i know. but i just had to announce that.

i just want to freeze time.

what a whirlwind life can be.

so much going on, and not enough time to process it all.

my trip across the pond has officially been postponed. i'm not happy about it.

in exchange for that, i did get my top choice of co-op with http://www.redwoodcc.com and i'm excited for that.

other than that, i'm completely unmotivated by life, single again, working/eating/sleeping, a drone in the game of life.

things aren't completely horrible....but never as planned. i have a lot of good things happening...but they aren't making me happy.

mhhhmmm

so tomorrow eric is going on a mini tour w/ his band. i decided to bake some cookies for them for the trip.


since most of the band is either veggie or vegan, i made vegan chocolate chip cookies!











so tasty!!!


here's the recipe:

2 cups flour
1 cup sugar
2 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp salt
1 tbsp cinnamon (optional)
1/2 cup oil (canola or sunflower)
1 tsp vanilla extract
1/4 cup cold water or soy milk

chocolate chips (just eyeball the amount, add more if it seems there aren't enough per cookie, if you have too many you'll just have extras in the bowl later)

preheat oven to 350 degrees
mix all ingredients together in the order specified (add the chocolate chips after the other ingredients are mixed) and then roll balls of cookies and flatten them onto a pan.


i cooked them for about 8 minutes, but my oven is hotter than most...so i'd keep a keen eye on the first batch until you are sure about your oven.

*i used soy milk and the cinnamon= SOOO GOOOOD!!!!

it's staring....

all i have to say is....watch out!!

"Similar to a scare originally found in Cambodia back in 2005, victims of a new strain of the swine flu virus H1N1 have been reported in London.

After death, this virus is able to restart the heart of it’s victim for up to two hours after the initial demise of the person where the individual behaves in extremely violent ways from what is believe to be a combination of brain damage and a chemical released into blood during “resurrection.” "

"The Netherlands confirms its first case of zombie swine flu, in a three-year-old boy recently returned from Mexico. After passing away early this morning, he rose from the dead and lunged at his mother."

check out the whole article here. i'm not making this stuff up.

call me paranoid.....

okay. i'm not done with my zombie news.

i'm convinced that there are zombies now. the world is going to end.

but it's because the signs are here.

1. a pandemic/outbreak - swine flu - how it all starts
World Health Org. Update:
28 April 2009
Swine influenza - update 4

28 April 2009--The situation continues to evolve rapidly. As of 19:15 GMT, 28 April 2009, seven countries have officially reported cases of swine influenza A/H1N1 infection. The United States Government has reported 64 laboratory confirmed human cases, with no deaths. Mexico has reported 26 confirmed human cases of infection including seven deaths.

The following countries have reported laboratory confirmed cases with no deaths - Canada (6), New Zealand (3), the United Kingdom (2), Israel (2) and Spain (2).

Further information on the situation will be available on the WHO website on a regular basis.

WHO advises no restriction of regular travel or closure of borders. It is considered prudent for people who are ill to delay international travel and for people developing symptoms following international travel to seek medical attention, in line with guidance from national authorities.

There is also no risk of infection from this virus from consumption of well-cooked pork and pork products. Individuals are advised to wash hands thoroughly with soap and water on a regular basis and should seek medical attention if they develop any symptoms of influenza-like illness.

click here for more.

basically, we think that it's some flu or something....then everyone is getting sick and turning.

2. Graves are being vandalized aka the dead are rising.
Incidents:
- article 1
- article 2
- article 3
- article 4

i've complied other info, but it's slightly morbid. and i don't feel right about posting it.


watch out. and get ready.

nightmares.

so this morning i woke up from the most horrible nightmare.

i don't get scared by much. especially in movies. but i am terrified of zombies. for real. i find them to be more realistic then most horror film ideas. it could happen. it will happen. some day a big military attack or development will result in us all dying. from zombies.

so there i was. in a field. children all around me. i am running. at full speed. (and i really don't do that) yelling at them to get inside. then i suddenly realize that they are chasing me. i get into this rather large 1970's style church. all brown and burnt orange in colour. i rush up the stairs and out the window to the roof. which was like a tower, with weird circular forms. i keep climbing. the tower starts to fall. it lands on the building next to it. it was as if i planned that to happen. i rush inside. down the stairs. i'm in the hallway. the glass patio door is ajar. i lock it. i grab some blankets and start to head to the shelter in the basement where my teenage son (named alex ??? i know. strange) is hiding. but as i grab a blanket, i realize it was keeping the door shut. (would a blanket really keep zombies out??) i try to close the door. i see them. they are coming towards me. i run to the door to the shelter. there is a window. i see alex. if he opens the door we might not be able to close it in time. they are closer. almost at my heels.


i wake up.

seriously.

i sat up straight in my bed. for about 10 minutes to calm down. i felt as if i was in that situation. my heart was racing. RACING. then i look around my room. i decide i live in the worst place for a zombie attack. seriously. i decided i needed to move.

no i'm not going to move. but really. i need to sort out a plan. just in case.